What Lies Beneath?

Several weeks ago, I was helping my parents clean up the plants, weeds, and dirt that had grown in between the brick tiles on their patio in the city. My dad wanted to pour new sand on top of it and then seal it for the summer. It's been a hot summer, so to give my mom a break from working, I decided to help.

As I took the screwdriver and cleaned out the crevaces and spaces in between the circular and diamond shaped bricks, Jesus spoke to my heart and said that there is another area in my heart that He wants to go deeper into. Just as I was taking the screwdriver and uprooting the weeds and cleaning out the dirt, so He wants me to surrender again a part of my heart so that he can go deep to where weeds have grown and uproot those. Not a fun or feel good process but a necessary one. I sigh and acknowledge His presence, yet don't willingly offer myself at that moment. He continues to say that the sand over the bricks could try and conceal what is underneath, but next year the plants and weeds will surface again. I need to go deep with that screwdriver and uproot the weeds so that they don't grow again and resurface next year. Again, He has my attention - wanting, telling me that that is what He wants to do in my heart. There is a part that I may try to cover but it's futile, there are weeds, lies there that are deep and try to contaminate the rest of my heart in so many ways. This weed also gives the enemy room to try and exploit. To do what he does best - kill, steal and destroy. But Jesus wants me to know His love and His life there. So.... here I am today... several weeks later saying, okay - Jesus I surrender again.

Back at my parents today for a BBQ/party and I sit on the piano and from my heart comes this song and prayer.

"I trust You Jesus to love me. I trust You Jesus to heal me.
In this place of pain, in this place of struggle, I trust You.
I trust You Jesus to love me. I trust You Jesus to heal me.
Uproot the lies and plant Your truth in me. Uproot the lies and plant Your truth in me.
In this place of pain, in this place of struggle, I trust You to love me - to heal me - to hold me.
Come and breathe Your life on the garden of my heart.
Come and breathe Your life on the garden of my heart.
I trust You Jesus to love me. I trust You Jesus to heal me.
Uproot the lies and plant Your truth in me.
Come bring Your light and burn away the dark. Come bring Your light and burn away the dark.
In this place of pain, in this place of struggle, I trust You Jesus to love me, to heal me and to hold me."

Trust and obey for there's no other way to be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.

Heart surgery - You bring life where there was death.